Moving forward?

“The therapeutic effect of gardening is not to be underestimated. It’s one of the best ways to get back to nature and feel a union with the natural environment that surrounds us. The garden can be large or small – it doesn’t matter. The point is to work with the soil and touch the ground. Secure your life force and strengthen it by working with the soil. The Earth strengthens your life aura and your internal organs become stronger. The liver begins to detoxify and the organs become revitalized by the natural energetic detoxification provided by the Earth and its soil. By working in the garden we gain a sense of our connection to the source from which we came. We can continually feel this source within us for days and access it at any time we wish. Take advantage of the life and wealth the soil brings to you and become truly alive.” Medical Medium

“The therapeutic effect of gardening is not to be underestimated. It’s one of the best ways to get back to nature and feel a union with the natural environment that surrounds us. The garden can be large or small – it doesn’t matter. The point is to work with the soil and touch the ground. Secure your life force and strengthen it by working with the soil. The Earth strengthens your life aura and your internal organs become stronger. The liver begins to detoxify and the organs become revitalized by the natural energetic detoxification provided by the Earth and its soil. By working in the garden we gain a sense of our connection to the source from which we came. We can continually feel this source within us for days and access it at any time we wish. Take advantage of the life and wealth the soil brings to you and become truly alive.” Medical Medium

(via peaceloveandyogaa)

I wish you could live in my brain for a week. It’s washed with the most violent waves of emotion.

- Virginia Woolf (via wordsthat-speak)

(via wordsthat-speak)

I honestly want to lose 10lbs. I know I shouldn’t and it’s rather saddening but I feel enormous, I am the size of a house?

As a child, I suppose I was not quite normal. My happiest times were when I was left alone in the house on a Saturday.

- Charles Bukowski (via wordsthat-speak)

(via wordsthat-speak)

I miss my mama.

I gained 4lbs. I am trying not to feel triggered by this high number but I am. It’ll pass I’m sure, perhaps not now nor tomorrow, but it will regardless how long it takes until I am accustomed to a growing body. I am a woman after all.

Well, I went over to ex lover’s house and we ended up sleeping together, it’s not like I didn’t foresee this. I suppose we’re no longer ex lovers but lovers once again? I am uncertain but I had a wonderful time and I would definitely do it again. What concerns me is that he says that he changed his mind and wants to be in a relationship with me in the near future; if he had said this over a year ago I would have been the happiest woman on earth but things have changed. I am terribly confused. I know for certain that he is vulnerable and he may have said it in the heat of the moment. However when he embraced me and i felt his lips against my shoulders I can’t deny that I didn’t feel my heart skip a beat. It was the sweetest thing he has done for me. Ah everything is so complicated.

مآ أجمّل أنْ تصمتْ
فيْ ؤجهْ منْ ينتظرْ منِك الخِصَام

وما أجمل أنْ تضحك
فيْ وجهْ منْ يُنتظرْ منك البكـاءْ

How beautiful is it to stay silent
When someone expects you to be enraged from them.
And how beautiful it is to laugh
When someone thinks you are going to shed tears.

(Source: desertwinds, via kisses-from-heaven)

mertseger:

Hi :)

I ate five doughnuts this morning and I know it’s unhealthy but it was disgustingly delicious. I haven’t got any exams this week so today is my chilling day. I’ll be laying bed all day and resume revising tomorrow.

(via shadowbxer)

(Source: ver-nos-emos)

I craved and salivated for every inch of his flesh and manhood, but I refrained from touching him. I did not want to taint him by allowing him to taste the honey in between my thighs. I am aware! I am aware that his inner being is broken, however he is as hypnotising and mysterious as the harvest moon upon the earth. What am I to do?

recoveringlottie:

“I’m an anorexic.”
“I’m a bulimic.”
”I’m a bulimiarexic.”
“I’m a binge eater.”
Actually, you’re not. You’re you. Your eating disorder is just one tiny part of who you are. You are not your eating disorder. You have an eating disorder, you are not an eating disorder. You’re all kinds of things besides your illness. You may be a friend, a sister, a writer, a dancer, a dreamer, a believer…
The great thing about having an eating disorder rather than being one is that, when you’re ready, you can choose not to have it. When we have something, we have the choice not to have it - to lose it, destory it, let it go. We can’t change what we are, who we are, but we can change what we have.

(via shadowbxer)